Yes... even a lonely cockroach like me have a love story.
It's not dramatic, it does not involve many people nor did anyone else got hurt.
Not worth to be made into a drama.
But nonetheless........................
It is just as sweet, beautiful and melancholic as any love story out there.
I rarely write about things like this.
Her name was Nurul Akma and I was 11.
Yes I was standard 5 in Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Permata and Nurul Akma was my first crush or one could say love. She was my classmate...
Nurul Akma was this atheletic student who is also a prefect. She wore the tudung but when she does sports she opt for a ponytail. She had this nice tanned skinned and has this beautiful black straight long hair. She was my definition Gadis Melayu ............... Back then.
On the other hand I was this chubby curly haired kid who was also the smartest boy in the class. I was not athletic and was known as the bookworm and clown of the class. I was very knowledgeable in science and very good at math.
So there I was trying to join any clubs or activities she was in even when I know I am not suited for it. I tried to play hockey and football to impress her and failed miserably. I had always suspect and I think it's true that she has this huge crush on ..... my best friend. Every night I used to listen to oldies on Radio 4 and record them in a bunch of mix cassette. Elvis Presley, Roy Orbison, Frank Sinatra and Louis Armstrong were the one's that sooth my heart.
When I was standard six I was promoted to a better class. So my chances in bumping to her were less than before. One notable thing did happen though, one day I dropped my pencil box as we were entering the library on the second floor. I rushed down to get it and there I was her picking up every single stationery and neatly place them back in. Then she smile looked at me and I heard the sweetest voice...
"Awak punya ke?"
"Haah..."
I took it and went away. Never looking back.
Time went by and I never had the courage to confess anything to her. Then UPSR went by and I heard that she will be enrolling to Lembah Keramat secondary school, I got into Melawati. So I knew I will probably never see her again. I tried to see her and tell her about things on the last few weeks of school but I just couldn't find the words.
So after school was over came the fasting month of Ramadhan. I like boys at the time would visit our small surau (mosque) to meet and play around. That was when I saw her going in for the Tarawikh prayers with her mom.
So one night, one of the last nights of tujuh likur. I decided not to join the boys playing around but instead pray. I have never before (well I was 12) prayed as hard as that night. In my Doa, I asked god many things.. forgive my sins, protect my family and at the last line I prayed that I would be given the chance to at least, at least see her one more time, even if it's the last, I don't mind for I just wanted to have the chance to see her before it was all over.
Then after the prayers I walked out heading for home.
And like a miracle there she was at the entrance as she too was heading home. The other kids has gone off somewhere and the adults decided to stay. So there we were just the two of us. We both walk in that breezy beautiful tropical night no less than a meter apart yet not a word was spoken. It was as if everything stopped moving except the two of us and the wind whispering in my ear coercing me to say something......
"Mana mak awak?"
She replied... "Dia sambung sampai 20 rakaat."
"Saya dengar awak pergi kat Lembah Keramat, betul ke?"
"Haah, awak sekolah kat mana nanti?"
"Melawati.."
"Oh Okay.."
Then came a junction.. one was to her home and the other was mine. Then she looked at me and said..
"Ok Zaidel, kita balik dulu ye. Bila-bila nanti kita jumpa lagi ye. Bye...."
"Bye-Bye......."
So that was how my love ended.
It had no climax, no plot, no twist and no dramatic scene.
All it had was
me..... her...... and a beautiful tropical night.
I learned what a heartbreak is at a very young age.
P/S -
Indeed, I never saw her after that.
I wonder what happened to her. By now she is probably happily married with two kids.
The King, his family and U
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19 comments:
OOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....
cerita yang sungguh syahdu lagi mengusik setiap bulu roma kucingku...tak sangka zaidel seekor lipas sepi mempunyai pengalaman cinta suci yang sungguh luar biasa.
aku yakin kalau ko tulis novel mesti meletup mengalahkan novel ayat2 cinta...
p/s:kenapa tak cerita cinta sewaktu si sekolah menengah..huhu...
Ohoo itu bahaya TOS itu sangat bahaya!
i's happily married to her and we have Three Kids Bro ...just stay away from her .
Templar...
you do realise know this is partly fiction.
o.O romantic. No more crushes? Just tis girl?
It is undeniable that malays are stupid, incapable and lazy. Why don't they just humbly admit the facts and repent and learn from other races especially Chinese?
What is the point to argue here and wasting time again?
From the first onwards we were merely telling the truths. It wasn't us who think that way but their own Badawi as well.
All malays should go and read the newspaper, even Badawi is ashamed of maintaining the NEP after 34 years of implementing it and these malay baboons are still asking for it.
Even Badawi wanted them to compete on a level playing field.
So what does all these tell the world? It sends a very clear message that it is malays themselves who are incapable and lazy and they don't even want to admit it and make a change!
That is the biggest shame of all.
Can't you see, it is all back to square one. Year in, year out, some talk for half an hour, some one, some two. Some sing, many belt out their most recent released 'pantun'.
After all. Malays are good at that. Suggestions after suggestions, some good, some impossible to realize.
But, do you see any of these materialised? Hardly. Why, why and why???
Because the malays can never change. Never! Why?
The leaders forgot or were it they simply didn't want to address and admit that the actual disease is the malays and the remedy itself is also, the malays. They can never change. What is it about the malays?
Firstly as you all know, they are a lazy species. Since the beginning of time they have been like that. Even the encyclopedia called them as lazy people. I think those British with their accent tried to call them 'malas', and if you put 'y' in, it becomes 'malays'.
Embracing Islam make them a worse lot. Now they have a license to kill anything that gets into their way.
Malays are ungrateful lot. In reality, they just can't live or open their minds for others. When Mahathir said that they are complacent, they put him in jail. When Mahathir encouraged them to learn English language, they got angry with him, saying it is a 'bahasa penjajah'.
When other races 'maju', they got angry with them too. That was why at the end of Mahathir his regime, he said this, "I have achieved greatness as a prime minister, but I only fail in one thing, changing the malays."
Well, nothing to be surprised about anyway since Mahathir is not really a malay, and I guess that was why the malays were angry with him.
Drug abuse, hate, incest, liberal extremism (culture of miniskirts and gay marriages), murder, parochialism, racism, rape, religious fanaticism, snatch theft, spoilt bratty behavior, tribalism, wife abuse, child abuse, all that is associated with the malay race.
To them, malay is the biggest impediment towards building a truly Malaysian nation, and should be chucked into the dustbins of history.
A genetically flawed race cannot be fixed by politically. Nature will take its course and globalization will put them out to pasture.
What have we got now?
Brain drain, economic disparity getting wider, poor education system, racial segregation, widespread corruption, inefficiency and uncompetitive on the government departments and others.
Sad. Sad. Sad. The question asked by many of my fellow Chinese is this - Why can't you just tell the malay peoples to adopt Chinese culture which is superior?
From research, this peninsular was part of the Siamese empire way before these malays from Indonesia invaded it.
Still so thick skin, don't want to go back to Indonesia!
It is undeniable that malays are stupid, incapable and lazy. Why don't they just humbly admit the facts and repent and learn from other races especially Chinese?
What is the point to argue here and wasting time again?
From the first onwards we were merely telling the truths. It wasn't us who think that way but their own Badawi as well.
All malays should go and read the newspaper, even Badawi is ashamed of maintaining the NEP after 34 years of implementing it and these malay baboons are still asking for it.
Even Badawi wanted them to compete on a level playing field.
So what does all these tell the world? It sends a very clear message that it is malays themselves who are incapable and lazy and they don't even want to admit it and make a change!
That is the biggest shame of all.
Can't you see, it is all back to square one. Year in, year out, some talk for half an hour, some one, some two. Some sing, many belt out their most recent released 'pantun'.
After all. Malays are good at that. Suggestions after suggestions, some good, some impossible to realize.
But, do you see any of these materialised? Hardly. Why, why and why???
Because the malays can never change. Never! Why?
The leaders forgot or were it they simply didn't want to address and admit that the actual disease is the malays and the remedy itself is also, the malays. They can never change. What is it about the malays?
Firstly as you all know, they are a lazy species. Since the beginning of time they have been like that. Even the encyclopedia called them as lazy people. I think those British with their accent tried to call them 'malas', and if you put 'y' in, it becomes 'malays'.
Embracing Islam make them a worse lot. Now they have a license to kill anything that gets into their way.
Malays are ungrateful lot. In reality, they just can't live or open their minds for others. When Mahathir said that they are complacent, they put him in jail. When Mahathir encouraged them to learn English language, they got angry with him, saying it is a 'bahasa penjajah'.
When other races 'maju', they got angry with them too. That was why at the end of Mahathir his regime, he said this, "I have achieved greatness as a prime minister, but I only fail in one thing, changing the malays."
Well, nothing to be surprised about anyway since Mahathir is not really a malay, and I guess that was why the malays were angry with him.
Drug abuse, hate, incest, liberal extremism (culture of miniskirts and gay marriages), murder, parochialism, racism, rape, religious fanaticism, snatch theft, spoilt bratty behavior, tribalism, wife abuse, child abuse, all that is associated with the malay race.
To them, malay is the biggest impediment towards building a truly Malaysian nation, and should be chucked into the dustbins of history.
A genetically flawed race cannot be fixed by politically. Nature will take its course and globalization will put them out to pasture.
What have we got now?
Brain drain, economic disparity getting wider, poor education system, racial segregation, widespread corruption, inefficiency and uncompetitive on the government departments and others.
Sad. Sad. Sad. The question asked by many of my fellow Chinese is this - Why can't you just tell the malay peoples to adopt Chinese culture which is superior?
From research, this peninsular was part of the Siamese empire way before these malays from Indonesia invaded it.
Still so thick skin, don't want to go back to Indonesia!
One word: BEAUTIFUL!
For all its simplistic approach and no drama. As beautiful as that night itself.
why thank you ayu,
whoever you may be.
Dear Coolooc,
learn from other races especially chinese?
I'd rather learn from the jews,
they're way more awesome.
So Zaidel is your real name?
Dear coolooc;
Yes, everybody will learn from you; when you are not hallucinating any more.
Let's go and learn from the Japanese instead. I'm a Chinese, but still lazy to boot. We all got a lot to learn from Japanese, not the Chinese.
Fiction ? chelakak punya sinatra...kasi aku syok buta saja.Ok ,,tak pa ..carry on with your love story with ayu now.
For all I know Ayu is a guy.
This is after all the Internet.
Sure. And I could also be a Bot, that's being programmed to just reply at random.
...or the breezy wind that blows during one beautiful tropical night a long time ago.
You said, "For all I know Ayu is a guy."
I don't get what you were getting at. Just before that, all I did was to ask if Zaidel is your real name. So, why the need to be suspicious and doubtful, Zaidel? Was that your heart speaking aloud, reminding you not to fall or get carried away? Something happened before this, when you let your guard down?
uhhh.....
About you being a guy....
It was a joke.
Not that there's anything wrong if you are indeed a guy and your name is Ayu. No problem! I used to know a guy whose name is Zainurul.
So yes, My real name is Zaidel.
And No I don't discuss personal matters to strangers on the internet. Yes something did happened once before that make me put on my guard,
Once I used a nickname - BabyRina (a porn star) at local uni chatroom. I got hit by my junior and had a huge laugh when I revealed my true identity.
Oh yeah..... That was awesome!
Hi im Babyrina - I'm 18/f/KL
hehehehe sapa la si akma tu eh zaidel. :P
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